there is a part of me that realizes everything. i know how the world works. i know how jobs work. i know how learning works. i know how friends work. i know how guys work. by now, ive got it down to a science. i just dont want to believe it. i lay around thinking about what everything “really” means. lol and i come up with nothing. at the end of the day, people being motivated for their careers and where they want to go is brilliant. i can do nothing but respect that. but then i think, so what do you do when youve “made it”? is there some sort of self esteem raise? more people know your name? i know im not necessarily seeking fame. i have an art, and i have to do it to stay alive because i love it. but pushing people out of my life and stepping on toes is something i will never do. i guess my point could be that isn’t the journey is what its all about? the places you go, the art you create, the people you meet? whats so wrong with meeting someone and liking them? its only going to (depending on the person) inspire you more and maybe possibly lead your art and define yourself in a new light. inspiring yourself is great, but letting people in and feeling is inspiring as well, if not more inspiring. when caught with an immature person who cant understand how artists work, there in lies the problem. a maturity level just needs to be established. you cant assume everyone will get it. most wont. i am one of few that do.
ive layed around just wondering if the lives we have been given is soley just to love one another. or try. loving friends, family, relationships, is this why we are here. everyone puts so much emphasis on their “future”. its kind of unrelatable to me. i love love. i love meeting interesting people and seeing where the journey may take me. collaboration is nothing short of sometimes, a beautiful blessing. there are some circumstances where they dont work out well, but we all know by now, those are lessons well learned and some of the best art comes from pain/problems/difficult situations.
ive strayed from the point a bit. i tend to. most of my writing is just babble that no one reads anyways. but best to everyone seeking their future/career/fame, but when you get there you will want someone. its lonely up there. i will do my track the way i see fit. i want people in my life and i want you all to inspire me.